"broken"

today is 46 and I have no signs of AF showing, I don't think I am pregnant as i tested today and BFN, I am so sick and tired not bring able to do what is meant to be the most natural thing, i feel "broken", I'm so mad at myself, that I can do something that everyone else can,

I have decided that if the CBFM doesn't give me a peak reading this cycle, I will be going to Dr's and demanding some answers and see what they can offer