Feeling rather sorry for myself today...

I am missing cuddling Daniel to sleep, just holding him, seeing him look at me with his big blue eyes and seeing the love, i feel like a bad mother that I can't remember some things, his 1st smile, 1st giggle, I cant remember him being so little, well I remember, just feels like so long ago

I have lost all hope that I will have another baby, I had got it into my head that the CBFM would work straight away and i didn't even get a peak :( This was my 1st cycle of using the monitor, I got high readings for 10 days and then went straight to low, this was CD 26, I am now on CD33 and I have no signs of either ovulating or AF